It’s Going to be a Hot, Sweaty Christmas

By Rashell; https://diaryofanunbreakablesoul.wordpress.com/

I apologize to anyone reading this and thinking, gross. What do you mean?

I live in the South, so that’s one reason why it may be hot and sweaty this Christmas. I remember one year before when it was so warm on Christmas Day that I was out driving with family, and we saw a father and his son ride an ATV (all-terrain vehicle) around the roads like it was a regular summer day.

I also have a faint memory of driving by a house one time that had a snowman made out of hay. (that may or may not have been a fever dream though.)

It’s currently 75 degrees in December right now. As much as I don’t know how to feel about that, I have so much more and so much less to worry about at the same time.

Yes, I have bills and stuff to do and Christmas presents to buy and probably a floor I need to mop. But I’m worried about so much other stuff, too.

I’m realizing now that I’m not the only young adult worrying about stuff. There are probably several young adults also worrying about why the heck it’s 75 degrees Fahrenheit on a freaking December day in the South of the U.S., while it’s freezing and snowing in NY.

Why is it hot and sweaty in December right now? I’m not exactly sure. Climate change, probably. But… it feels good. It feels nice. The birds are outside chirping, and my cat, Mochi, is eagerly laying on my air conditioner in the shade by my window. It’s not a bad day.

There are still days where I get depressed. There are still days where I’m terrified if I should go to this event to see a friend because of my social anxiety. There are still days where I act like a normal human being, and that’s okay.

I still, to this day, tend to worry about the small stuff. The “oh my god why did I lose one hour of sleep last night” days. That is still something I’m worrying about.

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

Life is still a journey for me. I’m still learning that I suck at relationships, but I’m getting a lot better avoiding sucky relationships with men I don’t want to settle with. And that’s a win for me.

Am I still going to have 75° days in December where I’m wondering if it’s going to be a hot, sweaty Christmas? Yes, I am. 100%. It sucks, but that’s how things are right now.

But, the good part is that I’m slowly trying to enjoy life. I don’t want to be one of those people who works 24/7 and doesn’t make time for fun and life. That’s why I push myself to eat healthy and sleep good and have a great attitude. Because I want to live life. The good, and the bad, and the ugly- because I’ve learned that now, in this day and age, I can’t ignore the bad news.

Unfortunately, I will always have some problems in my life. I’m always going to have to try and balance stuff on my own. But I can choose to be content in my situation.

In any situation, I can learn to be happy. Even in the face of pessimistic people saying to my face in the middle of talking about their dogs, “I’m afraid the world’s going to end soon now. A LOT SOONER than we think.” Jesus, Meredith, you’re not helping the state of the world right now.

I am slowly becoming that calm person I always wanted to be. And that feels good enough to me.


K. Rashell; Mississippi, US
13 Dec, 2021

https://diaryofanunbreakablesoul.wordpress.com/

Author: Workers' Archive

Covering sensitivity at work and beyond on my website: https://samuelaliblog.wordpress.com/

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